Chapter 5.18 Things are Looking Up

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I can’t sleep a wink this night. Constant visions fleeing in my eyes as soon as I close them to try to get some sleep make it impossible to rest. Of Reggie cheating on me. Of never seeing Candy again. Of getting divorced. Is there no way out, I wonder. Can no relationship in my family work out? Was this heading towards a disaster right from the very start? Would my every choice not be a good one? Is a catastrophe getting closer each day? Then my train of thought leads me to my children. What if they have to grow up without a father? Reggie never changes his ways and there we go, suffering while he’s simply having fun.

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I suddenly raise to sit on the bed. No. It can’t happen. I will not allow it to happen.

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I turn to look at my husband. He’s so innocent when he sleeps, as if he was a little boy. Is that who he said he wanted to be forever? This conservation seems to have taken place eons ago. We were in a better place, then, Reggie and I. A freshly married couple with nothing to worry about. Look at us now. If that’s what we are after such a short period of time being a couple, then what will happen in the future? Are we headed towards a divorce? What if we’re not meant to be? But Reggie looks so innocent, so sweet and inviting… I push away the urge to kiss the rest of sleep off his face. I know what would happen then. But I will not let this happen. Not this time.

I touch Reggie’s arm and gently shake it to wake him up.

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“Wake up, Reggie. We need to talk.” He slowly moves his eyelids upwards until his eyes are opened, then he reaches out to kiss me. I avoid the kiss, turning away from him with a frown.

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“Talk, not kiss,” I protest and get up from the bed. My eyes land on a box on his nightstand with tablets scattered around it. It doesn’t take long to proceed this newfound information. I am now facing the bed with Reggie sitting there, looking lost.

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“You don’t have to take these, you know? That doesn’t make you a better husband.”

“Wh-what do you mean?” Clearly, he doesn’t get where I’m coming from. Or he does know and is just embarrassed.

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“You know exactly what I mean, Reggie. I… I didn’t marry you for sex,” I let the words slip, suddenly realizing that all my past behavior must have hinted at something completely opposite. God, why was I so dumb? I didn’t know a thing about what real life is like. Still not over the frisky teenager thing, clearly basing the value of life on having good hook-ups.

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“I’ve never said you did.”

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“Don’t you understand, Reggie? All of this… You’re not helping. That’s not what I would ever want in a husband. Not a sex freak. What is sex even? Is it just a way for people to feel less lonely for a few minutes? To feel the closure they wouldn’t get in any other way? Then why do people get married to one another? What is this all for? To have your own 24/7 prostitute? A good ass to bang? I don’t want to… I don’t want to be the other woman, Reggie. Not anymore.” Before he’s able to proceed what I’m talking about, I fall into his arms, spasms of cries overtaking me.

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This was not how I imagined this conversation to go in my head. “Please, Reggie, please… I just want you to promise to be around. If not for me, then for our children. They need a father more than anything else right now,” I continue, my head buried in his shoulder, my words barely comprehensible as I’m being strangled by his arm pressed against my nose and mouth.

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Only muffled, quiet sounds come out. I bury my nose in his shoulder next to his armpit. Familiar scent of his perfume which is now quickly washing off, ever-present gasoline, all wrapped up in the most beautiful smell I’ve ever encountered. Smell of the man I love. I start to sob even more now, but I’m slowly recovering from what has overtaken me before. Reggie has always had a soothing effect on me.

“I had no idea this was how you felt, Hailey. This is true that I’m rarely present at home, but my job demands all the attention…” His deep green eyes are searching for mine, but I avoid looking at him, focusing my gaze on his feet instead. I can’t shake the thoughts that now trouble my head…

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“Is your job all that really matters to you? Do I or your own children hold no meaning? Tell me, Reggie. What did you even marry me for?”

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“Don’t you dare assume I don’t love you, Hailey, because you know that I do!”

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“These are just words. Everyone can say them. Like actors in a movie. Learnt lines that they recite. Holding no meaning to them, it’s just a role. You can claim you’re a good husband and father as much as you want, but in the end it’s your actions that really matter. And deep down you also know you’re not. Show me. Show me that Reginald Calloway isn’t just all about big words.”

“Hailey…”

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“No. Cut it, Reggie. I don’t want to hear these words anymore because I am not able to believe in them anymore.”

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Surprisingly, my outburst seems to be already coming of effect. Reggie started making sure that he spends at least each evening with us and he started taking care of the kids. I even think he’s overexaggerating and trying too hard with the number of toys he’s bought for the twins recently. I mean, it’s nice at all, but my life is definitely lacking in something.

I’ve never been to Candy’s house before, but she told me her address ages ago and I found it saved on my phone. Just in case you ever needed to save me from the serial killer or something. Know where to find me if I don’t answer my phone, she said jokingly. I look at my phone to check the time. Late afternoon, soon evening. She must be home from work by now. Work? Where does Candy work? How is it I don’t even know as much about her? I feel guilt washing all over me as I start to realize how selfish I’ve been in this relationship with Candy, always bombarding her with my own problems, never even trying to think about what her life is actually like. I need to fix it. If she ever forgives me, that is.

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I swallow my saliva and take a good look at the house in front me. Goodness, it’s so tiny. Or maybe it is decent and I’ve gotten too accustomed to my ‘villa’ as she put it? Anyway… I knock on the door. Candy is there right away.

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“Hailey… I guess we have a lot to talk about,” she notes as she sees me. “Please come in.”

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As I enter the house, I take in the surroundings. It’s even more crumbled inside than it looked like on the outside. Sharicka sits in the middle of the room, playing with a tiny horse. Is that the only toy she owns? I quickly push away those thought as Candy turns to look at me expectantly.

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“Candy, I came to apologize. I don’t know what I’ve been thinking when I said all of those nasty things to you, but I am sorry. I guess this whole Reggie situation has taken a toll on me and I have been an awful friend to you.”

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“Look, Hailey, you’ve really hurt me when you said all this about Darryll. You know how he left me after finding out about the pregnancy, and although I think I might have gone overboard with my criticism of you – I should know best that being a mom is no easy task on its own – I have more added up to the stress with trying to make it all work.” She throws her hands in the air, gesturing at the room we stand in.

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“Actually, that’s why I came here. To make an offer. Candy… I want you to move in with me, Reggie and the kids. To the grand villa.” She looks at me as if I completely lost my mind.

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“You’re kidding.”

“No, I’m not. Let’s be honest for a minute – it’s been like you were living there anyway.  And you deserve better than all this, you know.”

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“I don’t have enough money to pay to live there.”

“You don’t have to pay anything.”

“Then I’m afraid I won’t take that offer. It’s unfair.”

27.jpg “Please, Candy. My kids miss Sharicka a great deal. You’ve already become part of our family, a loved member, equal to us in every quality that matters. We love you and need you there. Plus, I and Reggie have just been getting back onto the right track. Who will be there to kick his ass if he ever thinks about leaving us again? Come on, Candy, you can’t turn it down. You’re my only and beloved friend.” Tears have welled up in Candy’s eyes before I even finished talking. A huge smile is now plastered on her face.

“Then I’m afraid I will have to agree. But… We’ll have to discuss my living conditions again.”

“Oh, sure.” Candy throws her arms around my neck and hugs me tightly.

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Things seems to be looking up at the very last.

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40 thoughts on “Chapter 5.18 Things are Looking Up

  1. This was a great chapter. I’m glad things are looking up for Hailey now. It’s good she and Reggie talked and that he is changing things around so he can be more involved in the family. I really hope their marriage works out.

    Candy is moving in! That’s an interesting development. The best part is, Hailey was able to repair their relationship.

    I really love that outfit Hailey had on when she visited Candy. ❤

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    1. Thank you, Kym ♥ It is indeed very good that Hailey and Reggie finally talked and he does seem to have finally opened his eyes.
      Oh yes! I had Candy around all the time anyway, so I figured it wouldn’t be that shocking. She is really fun! Thankfully, she forgave Hailey.
      The outfit is from there. I have lots of dresses from Hailey’s pregnancy still in my game and that’s one of them. I recolored the top, though.

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      1. Thank you for the link! 🙂 I have a feeling I’m going to need maternity clothes soon. 😀 😀

        I think with Candy moving in with her daughter, it’s a win-win for all of them.

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      2. Strangely, I have such a feeling, too.
        It definitely sounds like a win-win. I bet she and the twins have grown really close, too. Feels like triplets with Ron having two sisters. I love the dynamic that’s building up!
        I hope that chapter wasn’t too chaotic. You know the conditions I was finishing it under.
        BTW, I wasn’t home, but going to shower and catch up on your story then!

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      3. I didn’t find it chaotic at all. You were under a lot of pressure, though, it’s true. 🙂 I hope that doesn’t happen to you again as that can be hard. You really did pull it all off, though. 😀

        I like the building dynamic, too, btw. 😀 I think it’s very interesting.

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  2. Hailey is acting all mature and responsible – communicating with Reggie AND apologising to Candy :O wow! I’m glad it’s going better for her and that Candy’s moving in. But this IS your story, so I don’t expect the good times to last 😛 It was a lovely chapter, Jowita ❤

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  3. Wow, look at Hailey, she’s come quite a way as a person. This was a heartwarming chapter, like you said at the end there, everything seems to be turning up. I think having Candy move in is a good call since she was there so much anyways and it is a large place. And it was nice that Hailey unloaded her feelings to Reggie and he took it all in and started working on his actions right away, like Hailey said, words can only do so much, it was about time he started being a better father 😊 Yay, I’m glad everything is going well 💓 Since we’re near the end of the gen I shall try and hold some hopes that things will be blissful till the end, but since that doesn’t tend to happen I’m not too sure I should 😂 I mean one worse case scenario, since Reggie wasn’t cheating, is that brining Candy in will somehow tempt him or something since she’s super pretty and single, and he’s obviously a hottie. I would like to trust that he loves Hailey enough not to do that… but people makes mistakes and that would be devastating since Hailey said herself that Candy is her only and beloved friend… But I’ll hold off on my conspiracies for now, lol. Look at how paranoid you’ve made me 🙃 Great chapter ❤️

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    1. Hailey has somewhat improved. Yes, it was definitely too optimistic and no, I’m not proud 😂
      I also think it’ll be good for Candy to move in. A better father and a better husband. Come on, Reggie, stop with all that Viagra 😂
      Oh God, you are too optimistic and full of good thoughts for my taste. I guess you might be disappointed. But no, you didn’t guess. I mean, they have a maid and he hasn’t tried anything so far, though last time I saw her strolling by while Ronald and Sharicka was on the ground. He picked up Sharicka. Guess he doesn’t even recognize his own children, that’s too bad! Lol. Yeah, goodness, Candy and Reggie are super good-looking, aren’t they?
      Oh, did she really say she was her only friend? That stupid girly, I’m going to smack her for forgetting about Frank. Just another reason for me not to like Hailey. Sounds legit 😂
      Thank you. Be prepared to get even more paranoid.

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      1. Oh that’s right, I suppose if he had that urge he would’ve done something by now so… *phew* a sigh of relief on my end. Whoops, I kind of forgot Frank too lmao 😂😭 I guess I’ll just have to wait and see how things head south.

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  4. Things are starting to look up for Hailey. I am so happy that she finally came clean with Reggie. And I am happy that he took her words to heart and is making an effort to spend more time with everyone. He need to get over this Peter Pan syndrome and be a father!!
    And I am happy that Candy will be moving in. I like seeing her around. She keeps Hailey honest, and she isn’t afraid to put Hailey in her place (which as much as I love Frank he was never able to do).

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    1. Oh yes, finally. Reggie is totally behaving like a child in man’s body. That needs to stop and now!
      I love Candy, but Frank is my special little snowflake, who has suffered from self-confidence issues and issues connected to being unable to be assertive for a long time now. I’m so happy for that bonus I plan to prepare for Wednesday, because he’s finally getting better. And we’re going to see a character who’s always in our hearts… God no, I’m kidding, practically everyone hates that person.

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      1. Frank is amazing, and I can’t wait to see the next bonus chapter with him. I’m so happy he is getting better.
        I just mean that Candy isn’t afraid to say what is on her mind. Hailey needs that in her life right now. Just like she needed Frank back when she was pregnant the first time.

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  5. Aw I’m so glad she talked to Reggie about her feelings and that he actually listened to her! Hopefully he’ll continue being a good father to his kids. And woooo Candy is moving in with them!!! Candy deserves a better life and Hailey did the right thing by giving her that opportunity. This was such a nice chapter 🙂

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  6. *clap clap* FINALLY. Hailey is stepping it up! Now THIS is the strong attitude I saw at the beginning of the generation. For once, I was rooting for her when she was standing up to Reggie and telling him straight. Is he seriously that oblivious that he didn’t notice at all how shitty of a husband and father he was being? Jeez. Well, I’m glad that Reggie is finally spending time with his kids. He better keep it up.
    I breathed a sigh of relief when Hailey apologised to Candy and made up with her. Although I did shake my head when she said ‘my only and beloved friend’. Hey, what about lovely Frank?!
    This was a nice productive chapter for Hailey. I don’t think it will last for too long, but I’m happy she made progress. Great chapter 😀

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    1. Yes, she is! There were definitely things that needed to be said. She totally ended up crying anyway. But yes, this is somewhat similar to the situation with Cedric. Yup, goodness, Reggie’s better keep it up or he might get a smack 😂
      I wasn’t even thinking when writing this dialogue, honestly. I am sleep-deprived like Louise. And I hate myself for not mentioning Frank, too. But I will say it’s Hailey’s fault anyway.
      Thank you 😀

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  7. Wow….so Reggie’s taking viagra to help keep up with what he thinks Hailey wants from him? I am glad she saw that. It speaks volumes…maybe nowmthatbthe pressure is off he will feel more comfortable at home. However, I worry about moving Candy in. That could cause problems. It’s hard enough to focus on your own relationship without outside pressures.

    Not sure that was a god move Hailey although her heart to heart with Reggie was.

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    1. Yes, that’s Viagra. I googled it to get the right color of the tablets. Don’t judge me, though, LOL. Uh… that was super awkward.
      Hopefully, he will feel more comfortable.
      I love Candy and her moving in is mostly for me so I don’t have to pretend I don’t control her. Maybe it won’t be too bad for them, though? Candy’s in pretty much already. She was Reggie’s daughter best friend as a teenager.
      I love heart to hearts. Why do they always seriously talk in bed and in the middle of the night, though?
      You came at the right moment. I’m going to publish my poses soon 😀

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    2. Hey, so guess what? It happened again. I mean WP hating me. I got to spam on both your story and The Hourglass. I have no idea how to contact your friend, though, so could you tell him?

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  8. I’m glad Hailey has finally talked with Reggie. They should have cleared thing up a long time ago. I know Hannah had a problem with that, because of Reggie, but he ought to have thought about it too.
    I agree with Hailey, it’s just a meaningless words, which everyone can say. Even I’m a good father xd Maybe sweet words mean something at the beginning, but afterwards actions are more important.
    It’s good Reggie understood that Hannah wasn’t feeling good and he’s helping her now, but, for me, this is temporary. You always tell someone what’s bothering you, this person will open eyes and will notice things, which he doesn’t see, and he will understand that he needs to change his attitude. He will be like a newborn for (typically) a week, and he magically will go back to the square one. So, I don’t believe in Reggie’s change. In the next chapter, or maybe in two weeks’ chapter, he will be still taking care for the cars more than his family. For me, this marriage is comming to an end.
    I’m glad Hailey made up with Candy. Friendship is more important than quarrels. It would be very stupid if they lost their friendship because of this misunderstanding.
    It was a bold move to offer Candy to move in. She really deserves more than her awful, little house. I’m curious what Reggie think about it. Did he know about this proposition or he will found out when he saw Candy with her luggage? Hannah doesn’t want a trouble and she is making them on her own wish. She shouldn’t make this kind of decision alone.
    I think Candy will bring an end to this marriage. Hailey’s story comes to an end and Candy is moving in just like that. What an unbelievable coincidence. I had a vision, Reggie cheating on Hannah with Candy. Is that turn out to be true?

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    1. Thankfully, that’s finally cleared out. Definitely, after being so long together, sweet words just don’t do the job anymore.
      Oh, so you think this is the end? But maybe that’s just the beginning! We can’t have doubt in people’s good intentions. Maybe he will do this out of his love for Hailey. Who knows, really…
      Friendship is very precious. I am pretty sure Hailey talked it over with Reggie, didn’t she? She should be responsible enough for that…
      Oh my. Why does everyone think Reggie’s going to cheat? You, guys, don’t sit in his head. And honestly, that’s the last thing he’s thinking of doing right now.

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  9. Hailey really took charge! I’m glad she finally told Reggie how his behavior affects them. He really needed to make a change, and he’s at least started to try now.

    Good on Hailey for apologizing to Candy! I didn’t expect her to ask Candy to move in, though. I wonder how that will affect Reggie since Candy was his daughter’s friend.

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  10. I’m back! 😀
    I’m so glad Hailey finally decided to talk to Reggie and apologize to Candy – that poor girl didn’t deserve that attitude, that’s for sure!
    I wonder why Reggie thought he had to take those blue pills… did he really think that was the only reason Hailey married him for? Maybe that’s one of the reasons he was being so distant too? I hate to say it, but I believe this new attitude of his will not last long – old habits die hard, and his is a pretty old one!
    I wonder how Candy’s moving in is going to affect the family dynamics! I wonder how Reggie will take it… Bad? Well? Maybe a little… too well? 😕 But maybe the last one will not be the case, since Candy was his daughter’s bff. Maybe he will be affected this way though…
    I can’t wait to see how all this will play out!
    Great chapter! ❤

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    1. Yess, so excited to see you back. Do you just go through your reader in the right order or do you go to each blog separately?
      Candy definitely didn’t deserve. She was nothing but a good friend to Hailey.
      Well, their relationship was very physical from the very beginning, maybe he felt obliged to give to her what he thought she wanted and needed from him as a husband. It’s not easy trying to live up to the expectations of your very young wife – and that she is for him.
      Hm, we will see about his habits changing.
      Candy is a great support for Hailey and she and Reggie aren’t really close. He respects her, but really all he can see is that teenage girl who used to come to his house for a sleepover with her BFF. Frankly, she reminds him of long-buried memories. So I don’t really think the thought of banging her would even cross his mind.
      Thank you so much ♥

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      1. I just realized I forgot to comment on your new avatar AND username! Your avatar is so beautiful (is it Candy or your simself?) and your username is spot on lol, because evetyone is calling you Jowita anyway! 😀
        I figured I’d go by reader order because I’ve just missed so many things… but today I’m definitely gonna be all caught up! 😉
        Hmmm this thing about Candy sound interesting. Maybe he’ll mentally put Hailey in the same place where his daughter used to be? Man, that can’t be good! 😯 Can’t wait to see what happens!

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      2. Yeah, I have an update you will eventually see in your reader which talks about my avatar and username and my new pose site 🙂 I would go by the reader order, too although sometimes it gets confusing when there are updates from a lot of blogs and you have to constantly switch, forgetting what has happened before.
        No, that’s Candy, ha, ha. I wish I was so pretty. My skin is definitely not that dark, I have short, dark brown hair, which soon will start to outgrow my ear and green eyes. I once made my simself but was strongly dissatisfied with it. Then I was too lazy to try again. I barely keep up with pose-making, regular chapter and bonuses. And I really love how Candy looks.
        I know, everyone calls me Jowita. It feels much better than some silly username. I was called Jowita, too, at the very start of this blog.
        Ooh, hopefully he will not treat Hailey as his daughter! He definitely misses Amanda but I think the physical attraction would make it weird and impossible to be in a platonic relationship with her.

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  11. I’m glad she finally had that talk with Reggie. I don’t think he really realized how his habbits affected his family. And it’s a good thing she made up with Candy. Good friends are rare – one should hold on to them.

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